This First Person column is written by Nadja Halilbegovich, a writer and child survivor of the Bosnian War who moved to Canada in 2002. For more information about CBC’s First Person stories, please see the FAQ.
As the pandemic enters its third year with no indication of wrapping up, I can taste a familiar cocktail of dread and anxiety made more sour by the fact that another year has begun. I have been forced to guzzle down this foul cocktail before, at 13, 14, and 15, each time ringing in a new year while living under siege in my hometown of